being stuck in Ohio sucks. I came up here the last week in June thinking it would be easier for me to go out and do things with everything being close. Well, that is not the case. I've gone out 3 times in the past 5 weeks. That's not so great. And it's been much worse since starting the Humira (an injection for the Crohn's) and lately, have been sleeping until three in teh afternoon. Today, however, I woke up at 5. Yes, 5 pm. So here I sit at 11:30 pm having only been up for 6.5 hrs and feel exhausted and weak, and have my insides feeling like an earthquake (tho that has calmed some). It feels like hell on earth more or less.
I am so tired of this. I desperately want to remember what it's like to not feel anything; get up, go out, come home, and just be. I want ONE DAY to not feel sick, tired, pain all of that. Just be. It's too hard to go out if I feel half way ok even. By the time I get my shower, dry my hair (which is pretty long), and get dressed, I'm to worn out to actually do anything. for not leaving the house in 3 weeks, I think the last time I had a shower was Saturday, maybe Friday. Which I know is totally gross, but I get so tired from it and I don't go anywhere, no one comes here either. So I have to ask myself, what's the point? Why get out of bed at 11 am even to just sit here and watch All My Children, One Life to Live, The Doctors, and Fox news channel all day long.
How long is this going to take?
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